What in the world is going on in Jersey

I'm telling you, there is just way too much stress in this state. The other day, a guy that works
for the same company my dad works for, shot and killed his 2 little kids and himself at his mother's house.
Of course, the next thing you always hear is that he was going through a divorce. WHY WHY WHY do they take the kids with them? If you can't stand to go on, go out into the woods and do what you gotta do. Why kill the kids? Unfortunately, the answer to this usually is that they know this is
the way to get back at their wife. Nothing will hurt her more than killing her kids. We had this same thing happen just a few years ago in a town right next to us. Then yesterday, a police officer we know came to our house on the police harley davidson. We know
several guys on the force and Tim has done wood floors for a few and the chief. I'm always wondering what the neighbors think when cops stop by here but most know us and the new ones
next door were out later and I mentioned it was a social call. Actually it was not but I didn't want to say why until it hits the papers and is general knowledge(which will be today). Seems a port authority police officer who lived a few blocks away from us killed himself in his
home at 4 am yesterday. The port authority is having the house dealt with and they asked the local cops if they knew a wood floor guy to replace and re-finish the floors they were cutting out.
They said they did and came right over here. My husband had to go to the scene last night to take measurements and see what had to be done. He came home a bit bummed after seeing the family photos on the wall. Seems this guy did this with his 7 year old kid in the home. The little boy went up to a cop we know and asked him if they were going to be able to fix his daddy. Ya know, I can't say I have ever been in the type of depression that you hear about where people just can't go on. I don't know what this guy was dealing with but really, did you have to do this to your boy?! I have probably mentioned before that Tim knows a guy that he was friends with in high school that is drinking and drugging himself to death. Another was having marital problems and wound up hospitalized twice with what appeared to be suicide attempts. My brother-in-law's brother-in-law killed himself a few years back this time of year over a job problem. It makes me mad when my husband is sick and wants to live and all these people are throwing their lives away. Life is precious. I certainly understand when people have horrible, painful diseases and can't bear it anymore. And I know I can't fathom the kinds of problems some have dealt with. I know I have dealt with and am dealing with a certain amount of depression with our situation. How can I not? I still have plenty of moments where it hits me like a ton of bricks that my husband has cancer. The thought of losing him makes my blood run cold. BUT, especially when you have kids, you go on. Even if you don't want to, and believe me, if something happens to Tim, I know I would be lost, but I would put one foot in front of the other for my kid. I would do what I have to do to try to give her the best life possible despite getting a pretty raw deal. Though I certainly feel empathy for someone who is so lost that they take their own life but when it involves kids, and they kill the poor kids, I get pretty darn pi**ed off. Is there anything more selfish than that? There was a woman on Oprah a few years ago who begged a judge not to give her ex-husband unsupervised visitation with their kids as he had threatened to kill them. The judge refused to listen to her. Her ex killed all three of their sons. How this woman goes on, I just don't know. This world is a screwed up place. Somedays, I wanna go live on an island with no one else around. It's just too much to see all that is going on around us some days. Whack jobs like this enjoy good health while my husband gets cancer. My husband is trying to live to raise our daughter and these idiots just chuck it all and kill their innocent kids or destroy their lives in the process. Doesn't seem fair, most of all to those poor kids.