I have to leave in a little while to have an upper abdominal ultrasound. I go to all my doctor's appts.
alone now. Tim is too busy with work and even though this is a radiology place, I feel wrong about
putting Tim around sick people(when visiting doctors) so despite the fact that I get so darn nervous,
I go it alone. I have the scariest of scenerios going through my head. I was told at 27 that my pancreas was
swollen and it might be cancer and I have never gotten over the fear of docs and testing since. I had
a very severe reaction to the drug they used to do the test to see if it was cancer and then they had trouble
doing the test so it was really not definitive. They told me to come back in 3 months for a cat scan and I waited 6, due to fear, but the pain in my side had left and I had not gone to heaven so I figured it wasn't that.
I am hoping that this is my gall bladder or something pretty minor. I have been running to the loo for 2 weeks
and despite not eating much, have yet to lose a pound. Immodium is my new best friend but even that is not
foolproof. I have never had surgery but if they tell me my gall bladder is kaput, I hope to have the courage to
have it removed. I think it has possibly been the culprit in a lot of my gut issues over the years but has never
shown stones in a scan. I was scanned 2 years ago and all they found was a small cyst on my liver. I was supposed to have that rechecked in 6 months and didn't. FEAR is the true F-word. I worry about that too.
What if that doctor was wrong and it wasn't benign? I've said it before, hypochondria goes through the roof
when your hubby has cancer and you have a young kid. Anyhoo, hopefully, this is just one more scare to add
to my graying hair and nothing serious. BTW, I have been unable to leave comments on other blogs. Don't know why. I can sign on to my own but can't sign on to leave comments on others. So, I am still tuned in folks and reading. And Lorna, I wish you and Mike a magical day and can't wait to see the pictures!!!!
Sending you best wishes and love from across the pond!
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Thank you so much for your good wishes, we really appreciate them.
We hope that someone will be able video the ceremony so we can share the day via youtube and the blog.
I really feel for you. Despite having had the hysterctomy last year I still get pain in that region, but I'm too scared to see a doctor and haven't even told Mike.
Hope whatever it is turns out to be nothing much and easily dealt with. x
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