2015

Well, another year has whizzed by at lightning speed. It's scary how fast the time flies. I have spent an enormous amount of time in my jammies this holiday season. Tim came down with the flu, which he recovered from quickly, probably thanks to Tamiflu. Then, I got it, and a few days later, Olivia too. I gave her Tamiflu for a few days and she pulled out quickly too. I, however, did not take anything and it kicked my butt quite a bit. Was SO tired and ached all over. We were over it by Christmas, but we canceled our Christmas Eve family dinner here and did not go to my sister's on Christmas day. I was sure that at least Liv could still be contagious and it's just not right to expose everyone else. So, it was a very quiet holiday and, though I missed seeing my family, I have to admit it was nice. No rushing around, just the 3 of us watching holiday shows on TV. I made a roast for dinner. We stayed in jammies quite late, but got cleaned up and dressed for dinner and a nice little stroll down the avenue with the pooch. My internal time clock is all messed up, thanks to laying around so much and sleeping all different times of day. I've been sleeping late in the mornings and that is just unheard of with me. I am better now, but the fatigue of that flu lasted some time.

As usual, I have come to the end of another year with regrets. Mostly, I regret that my husband spends SO many hours working and that we don't get to spend a lot of time on adventures. That really stinks. I also regret not getting these huge chores, that have been hanging over my head forever, done.
I've really become the queen of procrastination. Of course there are the usual admonishments about not exercising and eating better too (read- losing weight). OY! I know that I have been in quite a funk for some time now. But, I have to really get these things done. If Tim goes back on treatment, I will have less time and be in more of a funk and be less apt to be able to pull these chores off. We did go for a drive, last week, out to a quaint, little town that we've been to before. It was all done up for the holidays and SO pretty. Like walking through a Christmas card. We also took our annual trek into the city before Christmas. Olivia wanted to go to the top of Rockefeller center. UGH. Elevators flare up my vertigo. This one goes 67 floors in 43 seconds. We got the sun and stars tickets so we could go back up and see the sunset and NYC at night too. It was cool, but gosh, that is a long way up. Olivia likes photography so that was her main reason for wanting to go.

In MM news, I have been named an official co-leader of our support group. I've been helping out with the group for a while, and do a lot of the e-mailing and posting announcements and such. Our head MM nurse runs it and is SO busy with work, many times she can't even stay for the meetings so I have run some of them. I love the people there. These meetings are important to me. It's really the only time I am around people dealing with the same thing I am. I fear that 2015 might be the year Tim has to go to battle with this darn disease again. It's going to be a year of tough changes, even if he doesn't. Olivia gets her license this year. Some friends already have it. I am petrified. People drive like idiots around here and the sheer volume of cars is insane. It is so scary to me to have my kid out there. I have dreaded this time forever. So, I am trying not to be overwhelmed with trepidation with this year, but it's hard. We are already looking at colleges for Liv and that's weighing heavy on the old gray matter too. I hated it when she was on vacation for a week without us last summer. Going away to college is going to be tough on Tim and me. These next few years will have a lot of change involved. So, I just have to try to live in the moment and not waste today worrying about tomorrow. We've got a year and a half left of high school times to enjoy.

So, I wish you all a happy, healthy 2015. I hope you will be able to live in the moment and try to tick a couple of things off that old bucket list too.

Cheers!