Where's the justice?

When your life in touched by cancer, that word seems to pop up constantly. Maybe I'm just
"tuned in" but it's everywhere. The TV, conversations you hear. Everyone either has it,
is being checked for it, is taking care of someone with it. It never ends. So today I got an
e-mail from a woman Tim did his transplant with. She and her husband started just one day ahead of Tim and we became friendly quickly. She has come out of remission, reacted to
Revlimid by becoming very anemic and now was just dx'ed with breast cancer. I mean
WTF?!!!!!! You would think having cancer would give ya a free pass from being diagnosed
with cancer again but it doesn't. I think she is gonna be just fine. It appears to have been
caught early and looks contained but I just can't help but ask the universe where the heck the justice is in that. When I had my breast cancer scare, I turned to the myeloma listserv for
support and heard from several women who have breast cancer while their hubby's have MM,
some with young kids. I just don't get it. I have had nightmares about deing diagnosed with cancer ever since Tim was dx'ed. It makes ya feel very vulnerable when you get that shocking
wake-up call that says, "yup, this didn't happen to 'other people' it happened to us." Every so
often, we read a heart-wrenching story in our community paper that tells of a local family that
maybe needs help or whatever because of a tragedy. The first one we saw after Tim's dx was
a woman whose husband got leukemia, had an awful reaction to chemo, and she went into NYC
to give birth to their daughter next to his hospital bed. When I read that story, I cried. For them
and for our family because now WE were one of those tragic stories. I try to put things in perspective whenever I get too down. It's all relative. Our friend's cousin was a 40-ish woman
with 4 kids under 9. She got pancreatic cancer and died just recently. It always makes me think
"things could be worse" when I hear stories like that. There's just too darn much bad news around lately. Man, I just want to run away sometimes. This friend of ours snowbirds down
in Florida and lives about 90 minutes away from us when they summer up here. I wish I could
do something more than just be here. Her hubby needs knee replacements and the two of them
are just taking care of each other and schlepping from doctor to doctor. Well I don't have any
witty way to wrap up this post. We need some good news!!!